My office - it's pretty cute, cool sea blue walls, a Guy Harvey print over my desk with some white marlin swimming by, a cute little lamp, a picture of Alan and I with a sailfish, and ultrasound photo that I just can't take down, a snack (or two), of course copious amounts of hand sanitizer, my angel of patience (who I rely on daily) - oh yes, and the tornado of work that has blown into town on top of all my cute office stuff.
What you don't see is the inbox of a hundred emails - everyone wanting something, and everyone wanting something different, the light on my message box blinking - please empty me, I've got 12 new message (since lunch). This is only part of the back log (the rest of it I've hidden in another room). I need some help here people, I can't keep doing the jobs of three people, to not even so much as a thank you. I'm tired of getting cussed out by the general public because I don't work fast enough to suit them - really I can't work any faster. I am literally doing the job of three people, mine, our new lab tech who is still in training, and the empty lab tech position that we may or may not ever be able to fill. But I've had my fill, I've only got two hands for this ridiculous work load, and with the help I get, I use the word help loosely, I feel I'll never be caught up. I wish I could say that I feel sorry for the next person that calls up here with a bad attitude expecting something in return, but I'll put my sweetest Steel Magnolia face on and make my way through their insults.
I want to be a stay at home mom, I've never made any bones about that. But in order to reach our future financial goals, and to keep the benefits that I've got currently, which will only get better the longer I'm here - I've got to work. But to be honest, I'd care a lot less about steady income and what to do down the line if it weren't for my sweet boy, that's why if it weren't for that little guy on my computer screen, I wouldn't put up with all this crap, I'd quit without a second thought.
Wish me luck, I'll need it, and wine, lots and lots of wine.